Opportunity, knocking

We'd call someone previously involved with an ex of ours. X's, former lovers, partners, companions, even a whole gamma of individuals like our friends' and families' exes. Variations of an X: "used to be", "past", etc. A friend who has a side of lover, you call upon, someone you met at an after-party, then you got to spend some quality time, coffee into casual conversations, it is a phenomenon happening everywhere: boy meets girl. Girl falls for boy. Boy has episodes of jealousy, a bout, a rush of madness, every now and then. Men, we will always be territorial; not being animals, there's no need to go pissing around and marking your surroundings. Best to be quietly attentive and pay no mind to such alarming signs designed in the same area of the brain where your childhood dramas stemmed. Your fear of abandonment, your failures and sorrows, they all gather in this part of yourself deemed as the emotional realm. There times when anger has the best of you but the beast can and should be tamed. Every moment offers us the unique opportunity to grow, somehow, someway. 

And when we finally take on that challenge, we're transformed into action. The state prior to taking on a purpose, a dormant cocoon in which the tentacles of paralyzing e-motion, forces that dwell within us, all of these specters of doom that have been webbed by our minds, walls suddenly vanish with a demystifying weight, you find the strongest the load, the more you can lift. Wisdom belongs to the consistent seeker, discipline is the most precious of all virtues and it can be obtained by simply engaging constantly in the things we want to see through. We need the license required at work to increase my salary by one third, and that's just to start off with. In order for that to happen, we need to study. We need to pay rent. We need to go to Michigan to see my baby boy son whom I miss so much. We need to exercise, and be fitter. We are, all of these things and more. One stone at a time, soon we'll built a mountain. Continue to be smoke-free. 

Of course, jumping out a plane in a parachute will take more than household chores, but it's been considered. It may strengthen our bond, redefine my horizons, show a side of me I know exists. It's ballsy, and it's adventurous, and if she's capable of it so herself, I am so too. Let's do all these things and more; we got time to build something worth fighting for, we have fight and we have something very special. It is in our actions, the choices that we make daily, the quality of life we can aspire to.